Words of the Week:

On Honesty, Rawness, Realness and Yearning

Last weekend in author and teacher Mirabai Starr’s free writing workshop and practice she put words to what I deeply try and practice and live by:

That we don’t need more philosophizing and general teaching about spiritual stuff, we need LIFE, breath, blood, sweat, details, the “quirky as hell” (as she put it) part of the process of our living. (*Paraphrased from what my heart heard.)

My partner Eli said: “She speaks your language!”

Because this FREEDOM to be our messy wild raw selves and not try and package some “spiritual expertise”

IS

what I yearn for,

preach,

and aim to live by.

I told the women in my small group mentorship and mastermind this over and over this year…STOP WITH THE SPIRITUAL GENERALIZATIONS!! With love of course ;)

I do not want to listen to another podcast of people teaching me regurgitated attachment theory meets westerner interpretation of tantra from books not body.

I want LIVED experience of

TRUTH,

of dark nights,

of trials,

of trembling in the face of Love,

of moments of generosity

and bravery

and OPEN HEARTEDNESS.

Not being right

Or polite

Or “experty”

I want goosebumps

And tears in my eyes

And laughter that makes me know I am home !

That’s how I know truth.

Too much cookie cutter

Too much copy cat

Too much mediocrity

Too much performance

All is a bore to me!

Bring me the thing about you that is

REAL AS FUCK-

And hard to say.

Not generalizations about what is masculine and feminine

Or spiritual

Or sacred…

Or selling selling selling selling -

Bless our American and Western minds for trying to figure it all out and trying to commodify EVERYTHING !

This life is NOT figureoutable

It is feelable

It is liveable

It is let yourself be smashed open

Not everything can be sold

So put your phone down and your self promotion down for at least a moment

And let yourself be brilliantly

HUMBLED

By this place

Smashed and opened

Then make art of THAT

I yearn for it.

Words from my Wise Self to my Human Cutie Pie Self.

And yours too.

I love us both.

In all iterations.

Even when I’m most basic and generic I still have compassion for me- AND yet I will call myself (and you?) into truth again and again.

Photo by Caitlin Mitchell

*Writing Shared on Instagram on Monday 10/2/23.